<?xml version='1.0' encoding='UTF-8'?><?xml-stylesheet href="http://www.blogger.com/styles/atom.css" type="text/css"?><feed xmlns='http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom' xmlns:openSearch='http://a9.com/-/spec/opensearchrss/1.0/' xmlns:georss='http://www.georss.org/georss' xmlns:gd='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005' xmlns:thr='http://purl.org/syndication/thread/1.0'><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852</id><updated>2012-02-05T19:27:08.517+09:00</updated><category term='Korea'/><category term='Cliff-jumping'/><category term='customer service'/><category term='purpose'/><category term='culture'/><category term='Busan'/><category term='Geoje'/><category term='gratitude'/><category term='joy'/><category term='service'/><category term='decisions'/><category term='record'/><category term='calling'/><category term='Charissa'/><category term='Zach'/><category term='aspirations'/><category term='baby'/><category term='tips'/><category term='girl'/><category term='Canada'/><category term='direction'/><category term='ambition'/><category term='Will'/><category term='Jeff Lenhart'/><category term='9/29/09'/><category term='prayer'/><title type='text'>the musings of a wanderer</title><subtitle type='html'>thoughts and tales of a sojourner in korea.</subtitle><link rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#feed' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/posts/default'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default?max-results=100'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/'/><link rel='hub' href='http://pubsubhubbub.appspot.com/'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><generator version='7.00' uri='http://www.blogger.com'>Blogger</generator><openSearch:totalResults>49</openSearch:totalResults><openSearch:startIndex>1</openSearch:startIndex><openSearch:itemsPerPage>100</openSearch:itemsPerPage><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-4359837482504048437</id><published>2011-08-09T21:41:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2011-08-09T21:41:50.128+09:00</updated><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='joy'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='gratitude'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='prayer'/><title type='text'>The Melting Pot (II)</title><summary type='text'>A question to those who find this post.

Prayer is a powerful thing.  Having a prayer answered is a tangible demonstration for us of the real, active, working power of God in our lives.  God has recently answered a number of my prayers.  I'm confident that He has been granting my requests which are made according to His will for a long time, but I haven't really been paying attention so they have</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/4359837482504048437/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=4359837482504048437&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4359837482504048437'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4359837482504048437'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/08/melting-pot-ii.html' title='The Melting Pot (II)'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-4966374013108800140</id><published>2011-08-09T09:47:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2011-08-09T21:42:46.022+09:00</updated><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Korea'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Will'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Geoje'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Busan'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Cliff-jumping'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Zach'/><title type='text'>Real Stories (II)</title><summary type='text'>The Jump of a Lifetime

Those of you who know me personally, know how passionate I am about a particular hobby of mine.  That hobby is cliff-jumping.  I love it.  I love the total experience of not just jumping off cliffs, but also the experience of discovering new places and being able to appreciate the beauty of some relatively unknown places in Korea.  The activity is more than just jumping.  </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/4966374013108800140/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=4966374013108800140&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4966374013108800140'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4966374013108800140'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/08/real-stories-ii.html' title='Real Stories (II)'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-5050661261142685069</id><published>2011-04-30T18:24:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2011-04-30T18:24:59.001+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Perspectives (II)</title><summary type='text'>The Burning Scarecrow

  There’s something that bothers me.  It doesn’t bother me terribly, but I find it a little frustrating.  There’s this man, made completely out of straw, who I’m constantly running into.  The poor guy is always being set on fire by people I talk to.  It’s embarrassing, really.  I don’t know why people feel so comfortable to set straw men ablaze right in front of me, but it </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/5050661261142685069/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=5050661261142685069&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/5050661261142685069'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/5050661261142685069'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/04/perspectives-ii.html' title='Perspectives (II)'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-6725841646809999222</id><published>2011-03-31T11:12:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2011-03-31T11:12:23.563+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Lessons of the Sword (II)</title><summary type='text'>Love in the Void 

 God is love.  What a wonderful statement.  The fact that we serve a loving God is such a comforting, praiseworthy truth.  It’s something that we take solace in during difficult times.  Love is such an overwhelming concept that even those outside of the Christian faith recognize its value.  All we need is love.  Change the world with love.  People look for love, desire it.  We </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/6725841646809999222/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=6725841646809999222&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6725841646809999222'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6725841646809999222'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/03/lessons-of-sword-ii.html' title='Lessons of the Sword (II)'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-5550392267199700113</id><published>2011-03-31T10:04:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2011-03-31T10:04:39.556+09:00</updated><title type='text'>A note of apology</title><summary type='text'>To those of you who read this blog regularly (all 3 of you), I'd like to write a note of apology for taking such a long hiatus.  I've had a month of transitioning here in March.  I've begun 2 new jobs which require a good portion of my time, and my responsibilities at home have also required a little more of a concentrated effort.  For these reasons, I've been unable to produce anything this </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/5550392267199700113/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=5550392267199700113&amp;isPopup=true' title='4 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/5550392267199700113'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/5550392267199700113'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/03/note-of-apology.html' title='A note of apology'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>4</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-7066286378979200437</id><published>2011-02-28T17:53:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2011-02-28T17:53:33.242+09:00</updated><title type='text'>The Melting Pot (I)</title><summary type='text'>Question About Job

  As I laid out earlier in my post titled ‘On Formats,’ I will be using this section of my blog to address questions posed to me by readers, or writing about other miscellaneous subjects.  It so happens that I received a question from an anonymous reader regarding the book of Job.  I was debating whether or not to address the question, since it comes anonymously and I’m not </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/7066286378979200437/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=7066286378979200437&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7066286378979200437'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7066286378979200437'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/02/melting-pot-i.html' title='The Melting Pot (I)'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-7468583608545982942</id><published>2011-02-14T11:07:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2011-02-14T11:08:35.672+09:00</updated><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='service'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Korea'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Canada'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='culture'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='customer service'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='tips'/><title type='text'>Real Stories (I)</title><summary type='text'>Service!  I’ve lived in Korea for over six years now.  Time has just flown right by.  I never expected I would live here for so long.  Yet here I am.  I’m practically a citizen!  With time spent living in a foreign land, cultural differences often disappear from the memory.  What once stood out in my mind as strange practices by the Korean people are often now taken for granted as cultural norms </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/7468583608545982942/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=7468583608545982942&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7468583608545982942'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7468583608545982942'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/02/real-stories-i.html' title='Real Stories (I)'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-4802485396657774528</id><published>2011-02-08T15:51:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2011-02-08T15:53:46.493+09:00</updated><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='aspirations'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='calling'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='purpose'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='ambition'/><title type='text'>Perspectives (I)</title><summary type='text'>The Calling of God / Ambition  When I was younger, I had all kinds of aspirations for my life.  My ambitions seemed to be limited to whatever had my attention at the moment.  Now I was a hockey player, leading the Toronto Maple Leafs to its first Stanley Cup since 1967 (I still sometimes fantasize about this, sadly).  Now I was a fireman saving people from blazing buildings of death.  The things </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/4802485396657774528/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=4802485396657774528&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4802485396657774528'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4802485396657774528'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/02/perspectives-i.html' title='Perspectives (I)'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-1495213929963049040</id><published>2011-02-02T16:56:00.003+09:00</published><updated>2011-02-02T16:58:22.144+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Lessons of the Sword (I)</title><summary type='text'>The Suffering Man  In 2011, I’ve decided along with my wife to read through the Bible in a year.  We’ve implemented a plan that takes us through the Bible chronologically.  We’ll see how it goes and if it’s easier to see the plan of God in the world by doing it this way.  I’ve never attempted to read the Bible this way before, and I’m hoping that God blesses us in this.  The first book we read </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/1495213929963049040/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=1495213929963049040&amp;isPopup=true' title='4 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1495213929963049040'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1495213929963049040'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/02/lessons-from-sword.html' title='Lessons of the Sword (I)'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>4</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-6254333685865426698</id><published>2011-02-02T16:56:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2011-02-02T16:56:34.950+09:00</updated><title type='text'>On Formats</title><summary type='text'>Another year of living, another year of learning.  2011 is here, and with it comes a new format for my blog.  Instead of just giving a hodge-podge of random musings and ponderings, I’ve decided to try and focus it a little more.  To do this, I’m going to create four sections of writings.  Since there are roughly 4 weeks in every month, I’ll write for one section each week.  The sections will be </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/6254333685865426698/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=6254333685865426698&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6254333685865426698'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6254333685865426698'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2011/02/on-formats.html' title='On Formats'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-6657997512867778265</id><published>2010-11-22T10:17:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2010-11-22T10:18:19.727+09:00</updated><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='decisions'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='record'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='direction'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Jeff Lenhart'/><title type='text'>Wo0t!</title><summary type='text'>Ladies and gentlemen, it’s time for a celebration.  A lot of things have happened this year, but this may overshadow them all.  There may just be no newsworthy stories as big as this one.  What is this ‘news of news,’ you ask?  Well, none other than the official post that brings this year’s blog entries to the highest number of any previous year!  That’s right boys and girls, this post is my 12th</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/6657997512867778265/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=6657997512867778265&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6657997512867778265'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6657997512867778265'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/11/wo0t.html' title='Wo0t!'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-1881321501164468906</id><published>2010-11-18T10:14:00.003+09:00</published><updated>2010-11-18T10:18:09.589+09:00</updated><title type='text'>The Russians… they’re putting out some sort of jamming signal!</title><summary type='text'>I’m a big believer in communication.  I feel quite strongly that the key to any good relationship is quality communication.  Quality communication is entirely dependent on truth and honesty.  You can’t have a good relationship with someone you don’t trust.  Period.  That’s why I’ve learned to place a high value on the integrity of my words; because they will end up being the measuring stick by </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/1881321501164468906/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=1881321501164468906&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1881321501164468906'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1881321501164468906'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/11/russians-theyre-putting-out-some-sort.html' title='The Russians… they’re putting out some sort of jamming signal!'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/TOR-dN56n-I/AAAAAAAAAJw/JMwuBHEUx3A/s72-c/image001.jpg' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-3290144108775649715</id><published>2010-11-01T14:01:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2010-11-01T14:01:23.955+09:00</updated><title type='text'>My Daughter Cried</title><summary type='text'>This morning I felt one of the greatest joys a father could ever feel.  My daughter… cried.  I know, I know.  It’s cruel to take pleasure in something that causes your child pain, but, it really did warm my heart.  I guess I should also explain why she cried.  She cried because I was leaving.  After hugging her in the morning and spending a little bit of time with her, it was time for me to go.  </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/3290144108775649715/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=3290144108775649715&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/3290144108775649715'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/3290144108775649715'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/11/my-daughter-cried.html' title='My Daughter Cried'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-9118002086577311034</id><published>2010-10-11T11:10:00.010+09:00</published><updated>2010-10-11T12:35:42.562+09:00</updated><title type='text'>1 Year</title><summary type='text'>  My little girl turned one not too long ago.  We finally finished celebrating yesterday.  We had 4 separate parties for her.  The first came in August with my mother’s side of the family.  She wasn’t even 11 months yet at that point.  She had her very own cake made for her, but didn’t really dig into it like everyone was hoping.  She just tenderly touched the cake, inspecting it to see what it </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/9118002086577311034/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=9118002086577311034&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/9118002086577311034'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/9118002086577311034'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/10/1-year.html' title='1 Year'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/TLKFpGtPqBI/AAAAAAAAAJg/p-EO-InJANs/s72-c/IMG_1493.JPG' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-4949445783024458964</id><published>2010-08-31T15:53:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2010-08-31T15:57:42.549+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Waste not, want not</title><summary type='text'>The break is officially over.  I’m back working again, back ‘into the swing of things,’ by which I assume means back into the usual routines of my daily life.  You may have noticed that just after I said I was going to try and blog about once a week, I suddenly stopped posting blogs.  I was going on vacation and decided that entailed everything in my normal life, including writing.  It was a much</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/4949445783024458964/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=4949445783024458964&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4949445783024458964'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4949445783024458964'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/08/waste-not-want-not.html' title='Waste not, want not'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-1840935087053300622</id><published>2010-07-05T13:44:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2010-07-05T13:44:47.994+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Let your anger flow like molasses</title><summary type='text'>There have been many different minor issues floating through my head lately.  None of these has really taken up a significant amount of time, I’ve only thought about them in passing.  There has not been a major issue that has taken up my time as of late, and that’s probably because I’ve just been too lazy to put in the time to think through an issue to completion.  Only having minor, passing </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/1840935087053300622/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=1840935087053300622&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1840935087053300622'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1840935087053300622'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/07/let-your-anger-flow-like-molasses.html' title='Let your anger flow like molasses'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-6038601709199609584</id><published>2010-06-28T09:56:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2010-06-28T09:57:38.304+09:00</updated><title type='text'>The quiet comforts</title><summary type='text'>This last week was a doozy.  I found myself so discouraged by the end of the week, I literally just wanted to leave my life behind, sever all connections and live alone with my family in the woods somewhere.  Every now and then I have this kind of desire.  I grow so frustrated - hurt is probably a better word - by the people around me that I wish I could just start a new life somewhere else.  But</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/6038601709199609584/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=6038601709199609584&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6038601709199609584'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6038601709199609584'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/06/quiet-comforts.html' title='The quiet comforts'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-3308157278356105411</id><published>2010-06-25T15:05:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2010-06-25T15:05:51.208+09:00</updated><title type='text'>What to do when you have nothing to say...</title><summary type='text'>So I’ve set a goal for myself to write a blog once a week.  It’s not really a firm resolution, rather just a loose ideal I’d like to maintain.  I wouldn’t be particularly crushed if I were to miss a week or two here or there.  The problem is though, as with most things, when I began to make small excuses here or there to not do something I’ve previously decided I want to do, it often leads to </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/3308157278356105411/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=3308157278356105411&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/3308157278356105411'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/3308157278356105411'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/06/what-to-do-when-you-have-nothing-to-say.html' title='What to do when you have nothing to say...'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-8065435969207629178</id><published>2010-06-07T11:36:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2010-06-07T11:39:23.834+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Why Won't Anyone Listen To Me?</title><summary type='text'>I had to think for a couple seconds about the title of this blog.  I wanted to highlight the need for patience, prayer and humility, but titles with those concepts just wouldn’t adequately describe the purpose of this entry.  The truth is, I want this blog to be an adequate reminder of an attitude and practice that I want to maintain in my life.  I figured  the title should reflect the attitude </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/8065435969207629178/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=8065435969207629178&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/8065435969207629178'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/8065435969207629178'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/06/why-wont-anyone-listen-to-me.html' title='Why Won&apos;t Anyone Listen To Me?'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-2142575172744852448</id><published>2010-05-31T08:57:00.005+09:00</published><updated>2010-05-31T09:41:49.224+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Unclear ramblings... don't read</title><summary type='text'>It seems it's been a while since I've really written about a subject with the intention of finding an answer.  I don't just mean posted on this blog, but actually taken the time to really think over and meditate on a subject.  I've thought about things, true, but I just haven't really been searching for answers.  I think I've just been enjoying the process of thought.  Certain philosophies have </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/2142575172744852448/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=2142575172744852448&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/2142575172744852448'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/2142575172744852448'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/05/unclear-ramblings-dont-read.html' title='Unclear ramblings... don&apos;t read'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-7620213856131685995</id><published>2010-05-20T15:49:00.003+09:00</published><updated>2010-05-20T15:51:35.909+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Secrets</title><summary type='text'>Sometimes things happen to me or I witness things and just chuckle about them to myself.  I don’t tell anyone about them.  I’ve been thinking that it’s kind of sad that I don’t tell anyone, because sometimes they’re funny little anecdotes or interesting stories that add some colour to my life’s story.  I thought I’d just write about them and post them on my blog.  That way they’re recorded, so I </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/7620213856131685995/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=7620213856131685995&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7620213856131685995'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7620213856131685995'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/05/secrets.html' title='Secrets'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/S_Tb4GkkoBI/AAAAAAAAAIo/cSne_9Htm2A/s72-c/woman34.jpg' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-1713178831799069568</id><published>2010-04-26T16:06:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2010-04-26T16:09:48.554+09:00</updated><title type='text'>I AM</title><summary type='text'>I’ve been a Christian for a long time, and the majority of that time has seemed to be a little, shall we say, flat.  I’ve often marvelled at the descriptions of power that surround the early Church in the New Testament.  I’ve often asked myself the question, ‘why don’t you see power like that in your own life?’  We’re certainly told that belief in the Gospel brings with it an incredible power to </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/1713178831799069568/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=1713178831799069568&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1713178831799069568'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1713178831799069568'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2010/04/i-am.html' title='I AM'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-7205187269964375042</id><published>2009-09-30T07:32:00.004+09:00</published><updated>2009-09-30T07:55:51.141+09:00</updated><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='girl'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='9/29/09'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='Charissa'/><category scheme='http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#' term='baby'/><title type='text'>To my daughter...</title><summary type='text'>We went into the hospital on September 28th at around 8:00.  After checking into the hospital, your dad took the car back home and rode back in a taxi.  Your mom was surprised that I was able to call the taxi to our house.  Luckily, I knew just enough Korean at that point to order a taxi.  After I arrived at the hospital, we waited till about 11:30 when a nurse gave your mom something that was </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/7205187269964375042/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=7205187269964375042&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7205187269964375042'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7205187269964375042'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2009/09/to-my-daughter.html' title='To my daughter...'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/SsKLdIgOwXI/AAAAAAAAAH0/ZmchTnIfruI/s72-c/IMG_1361.JPG' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-1209239531221638566</id><published>2009-04-26T00:52:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2009-04-26T00:55:51.952+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Phil. 3:18 - If you're not living godly, you may be God's enemy.</title><summary type='text'>When we hear the phrase ‘enemies of God,’ what sorts of people come into mind?  I called a few people from ICC this week and asked them.  Their answers were all pretty much the same: an unbeliever, someone who isn’t saved, someone who lives in unbelief.  Other answers included Satan and the demons.  We could also include satanists, atheists, murderers, rapists, child molesters and a whole slough </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/1209239531221638566/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=1209239531221638566&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1209239531221638566'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1209239531221638566'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2009/04/phil-318-if-youre-not-living-godly-you.html' title='Phil. 3:18 - If you&apos;re not living godly, you may be God&apos;s enemy.'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-7961870897473084767</id><published>2009-03-16T09:19:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2009-03-16T10:03:15.610+09:00</updated><title type='text'>My life has officially changed forever...</title><summary type='text'>because my wife is pregnant with our first child.  Most of you probably already know this.  I'm writing to sort of put some of my feelings about this in word form, so as to reference it in the future (therefore this post is more therapeutic for myself, rather than meant for everyone else).  I definitely have very clear and distinct emotions after learning the news.  I've been overwhelmed with </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/7961870897473084767/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=7961870897473084767&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7961870897473084767'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7961870897473084767'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2009/03/my-life-has-officially-changed-forever.html' title='My life has officially changed forever...'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-9217868527669609915</id><published>2008-12-27T14:45:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2008-12-27T14:46:23.978+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Sermon Podcast</title><summary type='text'>At the request of my wife who can't always hear me when I preach, I've decided to record my sermons and publish them as a podcast.  You can click the link at the top left page of this blog in order to go to my page.  Hope you enjoy it.</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/9217868527669609915/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=9217868527669609915&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/9217868527669609915'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/9217868527669609915'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2008/12/sermon-podcast.html' title='Sermon Podcast'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-7064735664919448644</id><published>2008-08-29T15:26:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2008-08-29T15:37:38.089+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Who's Afraid of the Emergent Church?</title><summary type='text'>God is dead.  So the famed Nihilistic philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche said.  In the wake of God’s death, many men tried to replace Him with various atheistic philosophies of life - and failed.  When God died, we lost our sense of right and wrong and no longer knew up from down, or if there really even is an up or down.  We became unchained from objective truth and were left floating aimlessly in </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/7064735664919448644/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=7064735664919448644&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7064735664919448644'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/7064735664919448644'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2008/08/whos-afraid-of-emergent-church.html' title='Who&apos;s Afraid of the Emergent Church?'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-4264039989201315130</id><published>2008-07-23T10:45:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2008-07-23T10:51:59.434+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Ready to Talk - #1 Apologetics</title><summary type='text'>In my 20 some years of being a Christian, one thing that I’ve learned about myself is that the way I think about the world around me seems to be entirely different from the rest of society.  Outside of the Church it’s very hard for me to find someone who looks at things with the same perspective that I do.  In my younger years I was confronted on every side with people who wanted to change my </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/4264039989201315130/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=4264039989201315130&amp;isPopup=true' title='4 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4264039989201315130'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4264039989201315130'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2008/07/ready-to-talk-1-apologetics.html' title='Ready to Talk - #1 Apologetics'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>4</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-5353964343857896653</id><published>2008-07-23T10:27:00.003+09:00</published><updated>2008-07-23T10:44:16.897+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Praise God / Upcoming Things</title><summary type='text'>Well, to my one reader I'd like to say I'm sorry it's been so long since I've last posted.  I've been terribly busy.  I had my wedding ceremony on May 31, spent my honeymoon in a private resort in the Philippines, and have been getting used to married life.  I'd like to begin this post by saying praise the Lord for He is good.  Last night a friend of Eunji's came to believe in Christ for his </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/5353964343857896653/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=5353964343857896653&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/5353964343857896653'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/5353964343857896653'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2008/07/praise-god-upcoming-things.html' title='Praise God / Upcoming Things'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://bp3.blogger.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/SIaLQwScSII/AAAAAAAAAEM/FwyggxHL-cs/s72-c/resized_05-1.jpg' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-4564840945053745970</id><published>2008-05-15T18:07:00.003+09:00</published><updated>2008-05-15T19:44:35.055+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Official Explanations</title><summary type='text'>Because so many people were wondering, I've decided to finally write and clarify my current situation.  There has been much confusion as to whether or not I'm married, who I married, when I got married, why I got married, etc.  I truly do apologize to those of you who are close to me, and who I have left in the dark concerning my life, with the excuse of being busy.  As C.S. Lewis said "Be sure </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/4564840945053745970/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=4564840945053745970&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4564840945053745970'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4564840945053745970'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2008/05/official-explanations.html' title='Official Explanations'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-6177378263475227642</id><published>2008-05-04T17:28:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2008-05-04T17:32:19.898+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Funny misspeak -</title><summary type='text'>Eunji's Pastor to my parents: "I want to eat your family"</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/6177378263475227642/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=6177378263475227642&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6177378263475227642'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6177378263475227642'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2008/05/funny-misspeak.html' title='Funny misspeak -'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/SB10eXweApI/AAAAAAAAAEE/RWqJFlAoap8/s72-c/Cannibal-Promo-1.gif' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-6051580491097747544</id><published>2008-01-22T23:15:00.002+09:00</published><updated>2008-01-22T23:25:06.316+09:00</updated><title type='text'>May 31st, 2008</title><summary type='text'>I'm getting married......    .   .    .    .   .                to this girl.   .     .     ...    ......  ..                            |.   .    .   .   . ..  ......                            |.   .   .    .   .  .. ......                            |.   .   .   .    .  .. ......                        \/(the one in the glasses)Yay!</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/6051580491097747544/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=6051580491097747544&amp;isPopup=true' title='11 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6051580491097747544'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6051580491097747544'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2008/01/may-31st-2008.html' title='May 31st, 2008'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/R5X7kCPgJ5I/AAAAAAAAADc/LynetnKOW7c/s72-c/DSCN7077.JPG' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>11</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-8650601556404760949</id><published>2007-12-07T10:26:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2007-12-07T10:55:24.973+09:00</updated><title type='text'>My Grandma</title><summary type='text'>This past November, my grandmother passed away.  I had the opportunity to share some words about her at her funeral.  I've decided to post them here on my blog...




  I’m thankful for the opportunity to share a few words about my grandmother, Effie Dureno.  As I was trying to think about what to say about my grandma, the question kept nagging at me: how do you say a few short words about </summary><link rel='enclosure' type='video/mp4' href='http://www.blogger.com/video-play.mp4?contentId=a9e113f456bdce71&amp;type=video%2Fmp4' length='0'/><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/8650601556404760949/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=8650601556404760949&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/8650601556404760949'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/8650601556404760949'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/12/my-grandma.html' title='My Grandma'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-4038233923408223951</id><published>2007-12-07T10:00:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2007-12-07T10:00:46.376+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Session 2 - The Moral Argument</title><summary type='text'>In the first session, we talked about our need to interact with our culture, and the role of apologetics in evangelism.  We discussed the situation we find ourselves in today and talked about how it is somewhat necessary today to engage in a sort of pre-evangelism.  I also said that the goal of this weekend is to provide us with a few simple arguments in defense of the Faith.  In this session, we</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/4038233923408223951/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=4038233923408223951&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4038233923408223951'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4038233923408223951'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/12/session-2-moral-argument.html' title='Session 2 - The Moral Argument'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-1478126496586572432</id><published>2007-12-07T09:55:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2007-12-07T09:59:54.749+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Apologetics / Evangelism Series...</title><summary type='text'>During the middle of November, our church held a retreat which was focused on apologetics and evangelism.  I've decided to post the transcripts for three of these messages here on my blog.  Comments are more than welcome.Session 1 - Apologetics/Evangelism  In preparing for this weekend’s messages, I was challenged with thinking of a topic which holds relevant to our church today and which fits </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/1478126496586572432/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=1478126496586572432&amp;isPopup=true' title='0 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1478126496586572432'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1478126496586572432'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/12/apologetics-evangelism-series.html' title='Apologetics / Evangelism Series...'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>0</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-6787683781820268913</id><published>2007-10-23T17:11:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2007-10-23T17:12:29.532+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Back in Korea</title><summary type='text'>Well, it's been a while, and a lot has happened in my life.  I've come back from a great summer at home with family and friends, to a situation I wasn't expecting back in Geoje.  My life has changed a lot here in Geoje.  This place is no longer the sanctuary and refuge that it once was for me.  I had used this place previously to escape into myself; to relax and avoid the pressure and pace of </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/6787683781820268913/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=6787683781820268913&amp;isPopup=true' title='5 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6787683781820268913'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6787683781820268913'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/10/back-in-korea.html' title='Back in Korea'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/RulOMQziKmI/AAAAAAAAADM/IJBOT1Bexb8/s72-c/DSCN6513.JPG' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>5</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-5951536826072388222</id><published>2007-05-20T19:43:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2007-05-21T08:19:11.375+09:00</updated><title type='text'>The End of an Era</title><summary type='text'>May 19th, 2007  I sit here on what looks to be one of 4 final weekends here in Geoje-do.  I sit here knowing that I made a good first (last) weekend of it.  At first when it really hit me that I might really be finished here, I grew pretty sad.  I love it here.  The island is beautiful, the church is great, the alone time is wonderful,   and the job is more than I can ever expect to have again.  </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/5951536826072388222/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=5951536826072388222&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/5951536826072388222'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/5951536826072388222'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/05/end-of-era.html' title='The End of an Era'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/RlApdPlPmFI/AAAAAAAAACE/mzoHDWZXSYM/s72-c/IMG_0048.JPG' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-514702342561933079</id><published>2007-04-02T17:43:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2007-04-02T17:48:27.055+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Old Age</title><summary type='text'>I went to Seoul 2 weeks ago, and saw some old friends.  Had a good time skating with Evan and Johnny T, and was able to catch up with some friends that I hadn't seen in a year or more.  I could relate a dozen different stories about the trip, but I won't.  Instead I'll share with you one observation that I had on my bus ride there...3/23/07On the bus ride into seoul, there was an older couple </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/514702342561933079/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=514702342561933079&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/514702342561933079'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/514702342561933079'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/04/old-age.html' title='Old Age'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/RhDDPdYzmkI/AAAAAAAAAB8/3dFQkVg0cHQ/s72-c/IMG_0065.JPG' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-8660120462085262910</id><published>2007-03-21T07:26:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2007-03-21T07:26:03.072+09:00</updated><title type='text'>For Jen</title><summary type='text'>															Click to Play										Just a video for my sis</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/8660120462085262910/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=8660120462085262910&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/8660120462085262910'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/8660120462085262910'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/03/for-jen.html' title='For Jen'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-4870535706532793492</id><published>2007-03-19T10:20:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2007-03-19T11:32:53.559+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Surprise, There's Still New Things to be Done</title><summary type='text'>After being in Korea for more than 2 years now, I would have thought that there was not a whole lot left to experience.  The past few months have shown me to be incredibly wrong.  Although I could write about several different things, the past weekend should suffice.  The weekend was full of friends.  Friends are a good thing to have.  They make the experiences we have that much better.  Eunji </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/4870535706532793492/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=4870535706532793492&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4870535706532793492'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/4870535706532793492'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/03/surprise-theres-still-new-things-to-be.html' title='Surprise, There&apos;s Still New Things to be Done'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/Rf3l2yvsuoI/AAAAAAAAAAs/J66-CjrC62o/s72-c/IMG_0039.jpg' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-6667576729447484587</id><published>2007-03-19T09:54:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2007-03-19T10:19:50.342+09:00</updated><title type='text'>The Birth of Understanding</title><summary type='text'>Here it is... finally.  I've taken a long hiatus from writing, taking the opportunity to establish myself somewhat in my daily life.  Taking the opportunity to sort out all of my previous hang-ups about church while working to establish a church here in Okpo.  It's been a time for quiet reflection, and hectic activity.  Since my last written post, I've gone back to Canada to visit with my family </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/6667576729447484587/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=6667576729447484587&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6667576729447484587'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/6667576729447484587'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/03/here-it-is.html' title='The Birth of Understanding'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media='http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/' url='http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_8XAl3lJLNoY/Rf3frSvsukI/AAAAAAAAAAM/xmoW7V0pSHw/s72-c/IMG_0052.jpg' height='72' width='72'/><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-1630157095102030259</id><published>2007-03-12T10:26:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2007-03-12T10:26:00.698+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Scrubsy</title><summary type='text'>															Click to Play										Scrub boarding</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/1630157095102030259/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=1630157095102030259&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1630157095102030259'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1630157095102030259'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/03/scrubsy.html' title='Scrubsy'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-1038036395549658109</id><published>2007-01-26T11:46:00.001+09:00</published><updated>2007-01-26T11:46:07.184+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Seemingly Inconsequential</title><summary type='text'>															Click to Play										This is just a little tribute to my friends and family. The seemingly inconsequential things that we do every day are the really important things that we ought to cherish and not take for granted. Every smile, every motion of the hand, every loving word should be taken in and remembered. Thanks to those who make my life so special.</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/1038036395549658109/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=1038036395549658109&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1038036395549658109'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/1038036395549658109'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2007/01/seemingly-inconsequential_26.html' title='Seemingly Inconsequential'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-116485365398648095</id><published>2006-11-30T11:25:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2006-11-30T11:28:30.716+09:00</updated><title type='text'>shadows</title><summary type='text'>This place is growing colder as the sun is slowly setting.  My shadow grows longer with every minute that the sun sets.  The closer the sun is to disappearing, the bigger a shadow I cast.  Indeed the impact I have on the world is a dark, obscure blackness.  I am nothing but an obstacle to the sun.   My mark on the world grows larger, the more the sun sets, but should it finally set I would be </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/116485365398648095/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=116485365398648095&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116485365398648095'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116485365398648095'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2006/11/shadows_30.html' title='shadows'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-116349934520832348</id><published>2006-11-14T19:14:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2006-11-14T21:40:28.803+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Follow Me</title><summary type='text'>11/11/06  This past week has been one of exceptional spiritual dryness for me.  I had no desire to be in communion with God.  I had no desire to do anything but veg out.  When Jaynie told me no one had signed up to speak and asked me to do the message, I felt entirely disinclined to do it, and even felt as though I would be hypocritical in doing it.  This was a false sense of shame at my </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/116349934520832348/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=116349934520832348&amp;isPopup=true' title='2 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116349934520832348'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116349934520832348'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2006/11/follow-me.html' title='Follow Me'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>2</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-116286563513408691</id><published>2006-11-07T11:13:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2006-11-07T11:13:55.143+09:00</updated><title type='text'>the racoon surprise of my life</title><summary type='text'>miss ya brother!</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/116286563513408691/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=116286563513408691&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116286563513408691'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116286563513408691'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2006/11/racoon-surprise-of-my-life.html' title='the racoon surprise of my life'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-116272868630266918</id><published>2006-11-05T20:48:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2006-11-05T21:11:26.313+09:00</updated><title type='text'>The Existentialist Experience of a Non-Existentialist</title><summary type='text'>If (God's) help is not a metaphor, neither are (His) commands.  If (He) can answer when you call, then (He) can speak without your asking.  If you can go to (Him), (He) can come to you. - C.S. LewisThere is nothing certain, nothing except the nothingness of everything that is incomprehensible to me, and the greatness of something incomprehensible but all-important!  -Leo Tolstoy  It’s been nearly</summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/116272868630266918/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=116272868630266918&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116272868630266918'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116272868630266918'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2006/11/existentialist-experience-of-non.html' title='The Existentialist Experience of a Non-Existentialist'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-116221213244497230</id><published>2006-10-30T21:35:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2006-10-30T21:42:12.456+09:00</updated><title type='text'>Pictures from 'a story of three friends'</title><summary type='text'></summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/116221213244497230/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=116221213244497230&amp;isPopup=true' title='3 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116221213244497230'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116221213244497230'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2006/10/pictures-from-story-of-three-friends.html' title='Pictures from &apos;a story of three friends&apos;'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>3</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36782852.post-116212066702732482</id><published>2006-10-30T20:30:00.000+09:00</published><updated>2006-10-30T20:37:22.376+09:00</updated><title type='text'>A Story of Three Friends</title><summary type='text'>North Korea is threatening to bomb the world with nukes.  Bush is doing what he can to annihilate the idea of democracy.  Stephen Harper is eating a hot dog.  I am keeping aloof from the goings-on of the world, and exploring the little island which God has in His grace planted me.  This weekend Johnny T and Aussie Jon came and visited me.  I picked them up at about 3am on Saturday from the bus </summary><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/feeds/116212066702732482/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=36782852&amp;postID=116212066702732482&amp;isPopup=true' title='1 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116212066702732482'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/36782852/posts/default/116212066702732482'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shadowsofexistence.blogspot.com/2006/10/story-of-three-friends.html' title='A Story of Three Friends'/><author><name>mrutterson</name><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='16' height='16' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/b16-rounded.gif'/></author><thr:total>1</thr:total></entry></feed>
