Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Back in Korea


Well, it's been a while, and a lot has happened in my life. I've come back from a great summer at home with family and friends, to a situation I wasn't expecting back in Geoje. My life has changed a lot here in Geoje. This place is no longer the sanctuary and refuge that it once was for me. I had used this place previously to escape into myself; to relax and avoid the pressure and pace of living a responsible adult life. Now that I'm back here, God has impressed on my heart that I need to snap out of my laziness and quit making excuses for a lack of constantly being focused on Christ, and constantly working to understand His mind.

The truth is that I know I have to work, but have always desired entertainment. My fight against myself has always been a somewhat lethargic fight. I've generally given in to the momentary desires which I have contrary to the deep desires of my heart. What is life but Christ? What should my focus be on if not Christ? Why is it that to be a Christian seems so easy, but I find myself lacking in the practice? Perhaps my belief is not really what I thought it once was. Being a Christian means sacrificing ALL of my desires and dreams to the will of God. My life is no longer mine - yet I still have hopes and desires. I still maintain a portion of the things that I want and just blindly believe that God is going to give them to me because I'm a Christian. Is this really a biblical belief? Of course not, and so now my prayer is that I will simply submit my will FULLY to Christ's.

5 comments:

billy gomez said...

love the shot of you and little lady. very cool. miss you man. hope things are good down there. sorry its taking me so damn long to make it down.

beautiful feet said...

nice to see you're back!

mattandsteph said...

Hey Jeff -Great to see an update! God Bless!

Anonymous said...

Well, now I know what's been going on in the silence. Hmmm...obviously the Lord has been working on your heart. He has a way of doing that....when we let Him.
Still praying for ya back here at home...
Love
The Landgraffs

Angie and Jason said...

Great to have you back!!

And who IS the little lady??? Details, please!!